Being Catfished Online is not fun!

So this is a blast from the past, and I feel like this is the perfect outlet for me as I just can not seem to stay away from the internet. I can control all of my posts and watermark all of my pictures and even make a little (and I mean tiny) bit of money from blogging. 

If anyone following this blog, followed me on Instagram for the past few years then you will know the ordeal I recently faced... and even further, if you followed me in the YouTube days even better.. you will understand the reasons I deleted that channel as well. 

Both times, the reason I have deleted accounts that I became so attached to was because of an anonymous person pretending to be me and exploiting the fact I post things on the internet. This time was different to last time though. Back in the YouTube days it was a fake Facebook page and it wasn't too bad... someone just out for some male attention. But none the less it made me feel disgusting! Someone has also stole some of my old YouTube videos and is passing them off as their own which doesn't bother me too much if i'm honest.

Now this time it has been taken to another level, I have a daughter who is not even 2 year old and they took videos of her and photographs of her as well. They have been pretending to be me online for 3 years. They have Instagram, Twitter, Plenty of Fish, KIK, Snapchat, Steam and even posting on a free porn cam site as well as the odd other non relevant little page. It has become more of an obsession than a little bit of fun. They have even been posing as me on their WhatsApp account and speaking to real men via that. I have uncovered so much and it makes me feel physically sick, I keep having dreams about it. 

So basically I have de-activated all of my accounts... well as many as I could find anyway but upon a deep stalk of my stalker I found this blog and completely forgot all about it and it gets quite a bit of views so I don't want to forfeit this as well. I can re-activate my Facebook and Instagram thank god as they have so many of my photos. But anyway I digress, I want to keep this blog and just post whatever I feel like and why the heck not eh! 

I am not giving the person who has so shamelessly pretended to be me for so long the satisfaction of posting their usernames on here but all I will say is that if you find an Instagram for me, Facebook or Twitter... It is fake! I have Snapchat (@hideepants) and this blog now. And my hairdressing YouTube account which I should probably delete at some point (HMHairandBeauty)

OK so on that note, I will be posting on this and it will more than likely have no theme whatsoever...

Haidee 

xox

Botox For Young People

Growing up, I always used to watch my mum doing her makeup. She would use endless wrinkle creams and always pull at her facial lines convinced she was looking old. She is quite a young mum as it is, having me when she was 18 so I have never really thought of her has ‘old’ especially when most of me growing up she modelled. I come from a long line of beauty obsessed woman and when my great grandmother had a stroke she started applying bright red circle blusher to her cheeks and bright blue eye shadow to her eyes. This was because she couldn't see very well and she needed to know she had makeup on, bless her. I always used to look at my mum completely confused as to why she was so bothered about lines on her face, in my eyes she was beautiful and needn't worry. I always told myself that when I grow up, I will age gracefully and not worry about such small things... Yeah that happened! NOT! And here I am, about to write about my first Botox experience (with pictures) at just the ripe old age of 24.

So a lot of people think I am crazy for even thinking of Botox at my age, and believe me I have thought long and hard about whether or not it was the right thing to do. The thought process started about 10 months ago when I realised applying gel eyeliner was becoming a lengthy task. If you follow a lot of online beauty people including YouTuber’s, bloggers or Instagram and see, on a daily basis fresh eyes and perfectly lined eyeliner it can become frustrating (really trying not to sound superficial here, i know there are bigger fish to fry than perfect eyeliner... i have a problem, clearly). But anyway, at the risk of sounding far too vain, I would always think.... “Why don’t i have tight eye skin? I am only 24”

One of the things people don’t know about Botox, which I didn't know myself until recently is that starting at a young age is more effective than waiting until you have the deep wrinkles. Because I have had it in my early twenties (yeah I am not quite mid twenties yet, hanging on to that!) I have completely eradicated the wrinkles from my forehead. This means my skin is kind of frozen smooth and the wrinkles don’t have a chance to deepen, so effectively, my skin can’t train the wrinkles to stick, its kind of the opposite. As long as I have Botox in my face, my skin is trained to stay smooth. Basically its freezing my youth as opposed to reversing my old... if that makes sense? Which is a lot easier to do.

I paid £250 for 3 areas, I got my crows feet (beside my eyes), in between my brows and my forehead. Altogether it was 18 injections. I will need it again in 4 month, then 8 month and then its only yearly maintenance. I would advise doing your research first and finding somebody reputable. An actual GP does mine and my mums. She came into our home and she was full of knowledge and was very reassuring.

OK, on to the pictures.

Having the ability to delete photos is a godsend but doesn't help when I am trying to show you what I looked like before. I can make myself look any way I like on the internet so I have really tried to find some pictures where my skin isn't as tight as I would have liked.

I did however take the next one purposefully for this blog... I am pulling my sexy face. Note the slight wrinkles :-\

The next is about 4 days after the Botox... Its a comparison. I have to say at this point I was having light sensitive headaches (that was the only side effect)

About a week after the Botox, the muscles between my eyebrows had froze, but the outer muscles did not. Resulting in the next picture. At this point I was paranoid to death about looking like an angry beaver all the time. (My face wasn't constantly like this, this was me raising my brows. Thank god!) SERIOUSLY SCARY!

But now after about 10 days it has fully done its job... I think.

OK maybe the photo on the right is a joke :( I will never look that young again... Sad face!   

This one is from pretty much now, in all my unmakeuped glory! I am really straining my eyebrows here!

I hope this has helped some of you in deciding whether or not botox is right for you? I am so happy with the results. It has made me far more vain. But that can only mean good blogging right? I am trying out a few other things which I shall be posting about very soon. I am not going to be a regular blogger. I want substance as opposed to quantity. I hope you can appreciate that and if you would like to follow then dooooo it!!! I will love you greatly!

Love haidee xxx

P.S I cannot be bothered to jazz up the blog. Would it bother anybody if I just left it how it is?

Sooo this is AWKWARD....

I know this is quite weird, so just roll with it. I was playing on my computer and well, I logged into my old email account (linked up to this blog) and one thing led to another and I stumbled back onto it. I have been MIA for nearly a year now as some of you know and some of you also know the reasons for this.

Blah blah blah, I am sure the ones who don't know aren't really bothered. Any way, I have decided that since this blog has a fair amount of followers and is still being viewed it would be a shame to delete it.

I really do still love beauty as well as a lot of other things and feel like this is a great way to put opinions out there without the hassle of putting on makeup and doing my hair (which YouTube required). I also like reading other peoples blogs and I may not be the best with words, or the best at photography but there's nothing better than a "real" blog (for me anyway) so I am back to give it another go. 

What do you think? Is there anything that any of you would like to read about or see? It doesn't have to be beauty related, it could be something as little as a funny website I have found and want to share with you, talking about my life and what I get up to, product reviews (again not just beauty), food I eat... OK you get the idea.

And if you couldn't care less and nobody suggests anything then screw it, I am totally still posting shit! so there! :P

I have really missed the internet :( sad face! It feels pretty liberating writing this knowing I am going to start posting again!

Haidee xxx

Small MAC Makeup SALE!!

Not only Mac, I have a China Glaze nail varnish... This is first comment first serve kind of thing.

I am selling these items because I spend a lot on makeup and most of it does not get used. I am SO OVER collecting lots of makeup and now only buy the things I wear daily that suit my face... All items except the eyeshadow is used but still has most of the product, so if you are happy with that then grad a bargain.

I am adding £1.50 postage on these prices, if you want anything then il give you my Pay Pal deails. :-)

MAC Eyeshadow quad from the Quite Cute collection in CUTiE RRP £33 My Price : £19.99

MAC Mineralize Skin Finish natural in Medium (used a few times) These last ages, I know this from experience. RRP £18 (I think) My Price : £9

MAC Powder Frost Blush in Hounour, so shimmery the picture does not do it justice RRP £13.50 (i think lol) My Price £7 SOLD

China Glaze nail polish / varnish in 5 Golden Rings - RRP About £6 (I think) My Price £3 SOLD

Let me know if you fancy anything xxx

Bought Some Treats

So I on a wee shopping trip with my mammy today which was so much fun, we hardly ever go shopping together and thought I would share the only beauty things I bought... May post a full haul later as I spoiled myself.

I love this lipstick so much although it isn't very pigmented so a dab of concealer on my lips in a must before I apply it. I have never owned a lipstick from YSL so I was really excited buying this and I keep trying it on.

Price: £22.50

I have been wanting the Illamasqua bronzing duo for ages, especially after seeing one of Maxines videos talking about it, you can bronze and highlight in one swoop... time saving? I think so...

It is so shimmery and pretty, I love it!!

Price: £20.50

Haul: Primark are stepping up their game!

Now I am not one to do hauls really, especially not clothing hauls but it has come to my attention that recently Primark has been getting better and better so I thought I would share with you today's buys.

I only bought a few things and some of them I haven't bothered posting because everybody knows what leggings and plain scarves look like lol.

Left £8, Right £15

Both £4

Left £3, Right £16

£2

£1, £2, £1, £1

I am quite chuffed with my purchases and may go back to Primark this week for more :-)



NOTD - Spots and Stripes

I did my nails!!!

I purposly left off my little pinky as it is to small to do real nail art on and picked up rank on camera...

How I did it:

1) Painted them pink all over

2) Striped the nails with a white nail pen

3) Then the black stripes

4) I then painted the dots

5) Added a bit of sparkle with a pink nail pen

6) Added 2 thick coats of top coat

What do you think? I kinda LOVE them... A little bit of girlie as I usually dont sport pink :)